Monday, October 11, 2010

Tiny toes. Loud steps.

My daughter has small feet, compared to her peers, so why is it that her steps sound like a herd of elephants. I wake up every morning to the bang, bang of her little feet hitting the floor. She is three-years-old. Small and wiry, yet I'd mistake her for a 200-pound man running down the stairs to wake me up at 6:15 a.m., again. Then, like clockwork, she climbs into bed, stepping on my head, sitting on my head, pulling my hair out with her feet because her toes are now tangled up in my unruly curly mop, and cheers quite loudly in her high-pitch, deafening screech, "Morning time mommy, wake up!"

SSSHHHHH! I reply. "Ten more minutes." Then, she stands up and starts jumping on the bed. How much coffee has she had already, I wonder. And, why has she not brought me some. I tell her to go start the coffee and she cracks herself up. She jumps and jumps, then kicks my husband in the nuts and lands on my gut. He howls. I scream. She cries.

Just another wonderful morning at my house.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Sit and be still

Sit and be still. How many times have you said that to your kid? Once? Twice? A hundred times? How many times have said that to yourself? Probably, not many. Instead, we tell ourselves, “Keep going – get the laundry done, start dinner, vacuum.” Your inner voice screams and repeats over and over and over again, “Don’t sit down because if you do it’s over! If you sit, even for a minute, you’ll get tired and want to rest. And, if you rest your inefficient.” Tick Tick Tick, says your mind. Your temples start to throb. Time is running out, so you manage to keep your feet moving and your arms flailing to succeed as the top contestant of the mother-of-the-year award.

If you are anything like me you are in and out of appointments, rushing from one activity to the next; throwing in laundry on the way out and eating meals while dropping and picking kids up from school or soccer or hockey or violin lessons, etc. Before you realize it, another year has passed and sadly, the mother-of-the-year award went to some fictitious character who presumably resembled June Cleaver, or the modern day version: She was always ten minutes early to drop off her squeaky, clean kids at school,. Of course, she wears her perfectly-fit skinny jeans, crispy white fitted t-shirt; her hair and nails were always perfect. Her teeth even sparkled white and she was always pleasant, even to her kids. Their lunch boxes probably contained marinated okra with black bean compote and a side of strawberries and freshly squeezed pomegranate juice, and to make matters worse, the kids ate it. The thought of it all secretly makes your squeamish, but you would never admit it.

You, on the other hand, drop your kids off wearing the same sweatpants you vowed to throw away many times in the past two years. At least they still fit, right? You hope no body speaks to you because you rushed out the door, forgetting to brush your teeth, towing your two kids and their lunch boxes of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and their shoes and their backpacks and your shoes and your coffee tumbler, all practically balancing on your head.

At least you made it out the door. Then, on the drive to school you blare the music to your kids’ favorite morning song, ‘It’s a beautiful day,’ by U2. Your fictitious mom is probably listening to Antonio Vivaldi, one of the greatest composers of all time!

As soon as you get to school you shoo them out the door and tell them to get to class, “Hurry, hurry! Run, don’t be late. Go, go now.”

With all the rushing and commotion, one of your kid;s forgets his backpack.Now, you areforced to park the car and enter the school wearing your ragged sweatpants and ferocious breath.

So, how can your children sit and be still if you can’t even do it? In order to be still, you need to stop moving and rid yourself of the excess noise. So, does that mean cover your kid’s mouths with duct tape and toss them in the basement until dinner? Well, the thought had crossed my mind but social services would be here in a flash and I need those tax deductions. (Ya’ll know I am kidding, right?)

The excess noise I am referring to is the radio, the television, the videogames - all the stuff that clutters your mind. Get rid of it all and listen. Listen to the wind, the birds, the chitter chatter of your kids at play. Listen to your life and how it passes by each day, quite swiftly I must add. Just today, I attempted to read a new book my three-year-old daughter and I checked out from the library. Before I even cracked open the book, my daughter told me the story’s premise. How did she know that? I wondered. I asked her who read this to her before. She said, “You did mommy. We got this book before.” I was stumped. I didn’t even recognize the book; well, maybe a little now that I study the cover, but I couldn’t tell you what it was about, yet I had read it before. My body was still when I read it but my mind was racing somewhere else. I couldn’t recall it all.

Sadly, I wondered what other moments in her life I had forgotten. I’ve been so preoccupied with getting through the day, or knocking the next item from my to-do list that I have missed out on time. Her time! Apparently, I am an excellent multi-tasker – I may be able to handle it all but I sure as heck can’t tell you what I handled. So, where does that leave me? Well, right now I am going to sit and be still and watch my daughter dance to her favorite television show, “Olivia” – because that is what she is doing right this second.

And, the fictitious mom I talked about earlier, well, she doesn’t exist. So, off with her head!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I am back

Hey there. Well, I've taken a several months sabbatical. A lot has happened since my last entry. My daughter is walking, climbing, dancing, screaming, cuddling, stomping her feet, teasing her brother, and pretty much ruling the roost over here. Currently she is running around the house carrying a large magnifying glass, the diameter is the size of her face, up to her face. She is squishing her nose against the glass like a little piggy and screaming loudly.

Meanwhile, my son, my little darling, told me to be patient yesterday when I told him it was time to leave the TreeHouse, Chelsea's indoor kid playground. So, who is in charge you ask? Good question.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Moments in time

Every moment and every breath is a moment in our past. Have you ever had a moment that was so dear to you that you knew immediately that you would remember it forever. Most of the time we are running around ragged trying to get things done or to get somewhere on time that we don't experience the fullness of every moment. We are all guilty of it. It would be weird for us not to be - that is what makes these moments so special. Well, I had a brief moment today that caught my attention and this brief still in my life will be carried with me forever.

I'll try to explain it but it won't seem significant to you. But, if you are a mom you know what I am talking about.

So there I was on my computer checking email, of course. Nolan was sitting on the potty and Addison was crawling in the den at my feet. Suddenly, Nolan comes into the den naked. As you may already know a three-years-old must remove all articles of clothing to make a poop in the potty. I wonder why that is? Well, anyway, my naked Nolan comes into the room pouting, "I want hugs, mom. Mom I want big hugs." So I get on the floor and hug him tight. He proceeds to tackle me to the ground, hugging me tighter and pinning me on my back. So we lay their hugging; my son on top of me, my left arm hugging him back while my right arm lay flat on the ground extended out straight and long. Moments later Addison crawls up and snuggles her butt inside the angle of my body, resting her head gently on my right shoulder and like a puppy dog petting herself against my right arm so that I would include her in the hug. And so my moment happened. We all lay on the floor snuggling together safe and sound. I will never ever forget that hug.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

What does Santa want for Christmas?

Have you ever wondered what Santa Claus wants for Christmas? He must want something. His red velvet jumpsuit is totally outdated and I am certain the warranty on his sleigh expired years ago. Has anyone ever seen his list? Probably not and he has probably never made one; it is the farthest thing from his mind. That is what makes Santa Claus so wonderful. He gives without receiving, expects nothing and knows everything. Hmm. How do we ever repay him?

Well, I am going to make a list for Santa and if I could afford an excursion to the North Pole to deliver the items I would. So Santa, wherever you are, thanks for all the gifts that I have received over the past three or so decades. Here are a few things I think you need.

1. A new hairdo - With the right cut you could look like Robert Redford.
2. A new outfit - Red pants are out-of-style.
3. A new ride - It's got to be cold out there, don't you think? How about a new copper red Mazda CX-7: safety, quality and affordable all wrapped up with a bow. Heated seats can warm your tush and the hatchback is big enough to stow all the toys. There is even room for a few reindeer; they can accompany you on your trip.
4. A little help - Santa, you are only one person and I think it's time we all pitch in and help with the gift giving. So, in honor of you, let's all give a gift to someone we don't know.

What's that Santa? Speak up.

Oh, yeah. I didn't think about that. If you don't have your sleigh to land on the roof top how would you get inside to deliver the presents. Well, I guess the car is out. Just leave the keys with me. And, since you are out in the cold weather you should wear your red velvet pants; they will keep you warm. The boots can go, though. You know....Santa, crocs are very popular this year; they also come with an insulated interior.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Christmas Shopping

Well, I failed at my first attempt to finish holiday shopping early. On Friday I decided I was going to start and finish my Christmas shopping this weekend. That idea went up in flames when I realized I wasn't going to get out at all to shop. But, I did manage to buy one gift. So, I'll try again this week.

I am enjoying the season, though. Despite bitter temperatures I ran 8 miles and saved myself, just a little, from over-indulging in party foods both Saturday and Sunday night. I love the Christmas season. The celebratory moments begin early with Christmas parties, appearances by Santa who often comes with plates piled high with cookies and cake snacks, and of course all the time spent at church remembering and giving thanks for this holiday - my three-year-old son asked when we were going to sing Happy Birthday to Jesus. After I told him Christmas morning he asked how many candles would go on the cake. I was stumped! So now I guess I need a birthday cake as well as the other holiday goodies that have become our tradition.

So the season brings more than just festivities we can't decline. It also brings tighter blue jeans and tummy's that are at often times, still full in the morning. But we don't have to loose hope. We can stay motivated together. Just click on the link titled, "Running Through Life," to read about my workouts and tell us what you to do to allow yourself another Christmas cookie. And, if you want or are in need of a good holiday recipe click on the link titled, "Easy, Breezy Meals." In fact, the crock pot roast I made last night, for my in-laws, is one you won't want to miss. I was still hoorayed this morning and I still feel quite accomplished.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Enjoy the season

How many of you have started and finished your Christmas shopping? Well, we haven't started. I like to wait until the very last minute so that I can get all stressed out, spend too much money and freak out like all the other procrastinators waiting in line at the post office to mail their packages just days before Christmas morning.

If you are anything like me you are not sitting around twiddling your thumbs to the beat of Jingle Bells and enjoying every sip of mulled cider or hot cocoa. Instead, you are slamming your cup of coffee, half of it dripping down your face, half way out the door.

So what is the point to my rambling, you ask? Well, I am starting my New Year's resolution early. In fact, I am starting it now. I am going to be more organized and less stressed. So, my goal is to finish my shopping this weekend and enjoy the rest of the holiday, appreciating every scent of pine or cranberry, every taste of pumpkin spice and every hug and tug around my waist by my little ones asking for one more toy. I am going to enjoy it all.